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Random thoughts about my life as a single mother


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My 9/11 birthday boy

The tragic events of September 11, 2001 left most of us with sad memories and distaste for this day. Every year we are reminded of the many innocent lives that were lost and the visual representation of ugliness that is called hate.

I was still living in New York on that day when the famous World Trade Center towers met its end and chaos erupted throughout the city. I was a part of that history. I remember clearly the impact that it had on the world.

Naturally, the last thing I wanted was to have my child born on such an ugly day.

But history is not a forecast to the future nor should it be a predetermined factor as to how we choose to live our lives. Everyday God offers us little intricate blessings of hope. Most of them go unnoticed, but they’re there. I have to keep this in mind when the guilty feeling attempts to creep up on me for wanting to celebrate and rejoice this day. My blessing came with a huge bang one year ago today. As much as I resisted and hoped that my little boy would not come on this date, my stubborn boy still came. He couldn’t wait another day to meet his momma. Mason Alexander entered this world on September 11, 2012, while the rest of the world mourned and remembered those who lost their lives back in 2001. I saw his face and instantly my world was changed for the better. September 11th now has rays of sunshine seeping through its dark clouds.

What an amazing way of converting such a sad day into a beautiful hope for the future.

Happy birthday, my sweet innocent child. You are my biggest blessing from God.

Single Mommingly Yours, M.

What happened to my newborn!??!

If you’ve been paying attention to Mason’s birthday countdown I have posted on the right side of this blog’s home page, then you know we’re only 14 days away from his big day.

What happened to my newborn?

I remember the day I first met my precious little boy clearly. I keep thinking it was only yesterday, but it’s been almost a full year. He came on the day I precisely hoped he wouldn’t come…September 11th! Of all days THAT’s the day he had to come! My stubborn little boy was already disobeying his momma even as a newborn. Should I have translated this stubbornness as a subtle hint to what I should expect life to be like with my child? If so, God help me.

Sunday night, September 9, 2012.

It was my first weekend of my maternity leave and I was sitting at home watching an episode of Long Island Medium. It was Season 3, Episode 1 to be exact; the season premiere episode when Theresa Caputo’s son comes home from college. That’s when my contractions started. I ignored them at first, thinking they were just another bout of braxton hicks. I was wrong. These were about to become the real thing. These contractions went on throughout the whole night. They weren’t painful…yet. I was able to sleep through it with a little discomfort.

Monday, September 10, 2012

I woke up the next morning to realize the contractions hadn’t stopped. My sister and I timed the contractions. They were 10 minutes apart. Was it time? Should I be rushing to the hospital? Should I call my doctor first? Do I have to wait for my water to break? I consulted with my other sister in New York who as a mom of three kids, was a pro on these matters. “You should go see your doctor” she said. And that’s what I did. At the doctor’s office they lay me down on a bed and strapped this belt-like contraption around my waist. The “belt” was full of wires which were hooked up to a machine that would monitor my contractions and identify if these were labor contractions and if I was in fact, about to go into labor. The machine confirmed I was having contractions, but I still had a ways to go before labor would begin. “Come back when your contractions are five minutes apart” is what the nurse said. So with that, I returned home and waited.

Okay, Mason. If you’re not coming today then you better as hell not come tomorrow! You’re going to have to wait until the 12th.

Monday night, September 10, 2012 (It was really early Tuesday morning, September 11, 2012)

Never had I known pain like that in my life! The horror stories I’d heard were true! At a little past 1:00am Tuesday morning, the contractions started coming in at full force. And DAMN did it hurt! My sister can tell you because she fearlessly served as my punching bag that evening/morning. I’m sure I left a couple of bruises on her arm. The contractions were now at 5 minutes apart. In my opinion, it was time to go. “Take me to the hospital!” I yelled, but my mom thought it would be best for me to wait it out at home for as long as I could. She claimed I’d be much more comfortable going through these contractions in my own bed then I would be in a hospital bed. She was wrong. I had a plan. “Take me to the hospital!” I repeated over and over again until finally my words were taken seriously.

After some monitoring of my contractions and a few more bruises (this time at the mercy of my mother), I was admitted in and transferred to a delivery room. “Do you want an epi…” I didn’t even let the nurse finish her question. This had been part of my plan. “Yes! I want an epidural! Give it to me now!” The nurse kindly obliged and in an instant, I was put out of my misery. I slept all the way to the morning in that hospital bed. Like a baby. My mother was wrong. I was ten times more comfortable here than I would have ever been in my own bed. Ahhhhh…the miracle of drugs.

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

At approximately 11:00am the nurse announced I was fully dialated and it was time. In came the doctor. I’ll spare you from the details of my labor, but I’ll tell you it only took half an hour of me pushing the little guy out. He was born at 11:36am. September 11, 2012.

Whew! THAT was a year ago. My completely helpless little baby is now an independent little person walking around and throwing tantrums every minute that he can.

And so I ask again, What happened to my newborn?

Single Mommingly Yours, M


“She believed s…

“She believed she could, so she did.” ~ Unknown

One of my favorite quotes and one that I keep hanging on my bedroom wall to remind me that I can do anything! The trick is just to believe in myself and oh yeah, STOP BEING SO DAMN LAZY!

So here I am.  After years of thinking about it and procrasting, I am finally starting a blog.   I believe! I believe!  Hallelujah, I believe! 

Whew! Now let us see where this new journey takes me.

Single mommingly yours, M.